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It's a girl!
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| Is She or Isn't She? |
[31 May 2010|12:53pm] |
( ONTD )
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| Mrs. Manicci proud wife. |
[26 Apr 2010|09:39am] |
Not only was I proud the Grammy’s opening act arm candy, but I’m the wife of a man that looks pretty damn hot when he’s dancing on stage.
( And how handsome is he with his glasses on? )
How amazing was last night? I actually cried when Leo and the band won. I think it was just being there in the moment as I watched him go up on stage to accept his award and seeing him in awe. Realizing all his hard work was being acknowledge by everyone and not just me. This was the best Grammy’s so far I think, everyone seems happy and no was let down so it seems. This proves it was a good year in music and now there is nothing but tour after tour coming out. Everyone is getting so busy but the best thing about the Grammy’s last night is that I got to see ALL ( almost all Stone) my friends last night. We are always so far apart and we are the busy bunch in Hollywood I think. We are non-stop and they are like my family seeing how I don’t really have one. It has always been just me and my mom. Now I have Leo and along with him I have always saw Jade, Ali, Joel, Zeke, and yes even you Stone and his family as my family. Zeke looked great last night and it’s always a plus to see him perform. I think I tackled Jade and almost ripped that beautiful blue dress off of her the moment I saw her, her huge boyfriend Huck looking at me as if I lost my mind. I get a little excited when I see my girls, my sisters. Seeing Ali as well was perfect and I don’t know how she does it but the girl always look like a damn goddess. I think the last time all three of us were together was for my birthday last year in London. So it is apparent that when Jade, Ali, and myself get together we can get pretty drunk! It just enviable. Joel and Jeff I have to say were looking P.H.A.T., that’s right I know what that means. I hugged Joel for so damn long that Leo had to pull me off of him. I don’t know when I’ll see him again so I just wanted to hold on to him as long as I could!
Just having them all there last night had made me think about the wedding I didn’t have, how crazy and loving it would have been to have them all there with me (even Stone), sharing one of the best moments of my life with these people. Seeing their kids running around and playing together just makes my heart melt. Okay I need to stop before I make myself cry again.
On a side about what’s going on with me. I have huge news, Really huge! My mind is blown and I would tell you all here, but I feel like Leo should know first. As well Zeke call me when you get the chance. I'm going to be going on tour with Leo for a while as well. I can't believe his tour is going to be over a year long! The summer is coming up and usually I do some big trip, but I think this year it's just going to be about squeezing as much time in as I can with Leo while I can.
Forgive how ramblish this post is. I'm either still drunk or getting to the hung over part.
Congratulation again to everyone, not just the winners, but the nominees and the performers.You all are brilliant.
XOXO LeeLee
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[21 Mar 2010|02:22am] |
I have been staring at this blank screen for a week. I don’t know who needs to know how it feels or understand what I have been attempting to put into words. The power to forgive and forget is a big responsibly. I have done a lot of it over the years, but I think I'm at my breaking point. Maybe a power out of my reach for the moment.
Why let this go? The need to know the other half of you? I never knew my father. I have only met him once in my life, when I was starting to make a name for myself. He came into my life introducing himself as my daddy, but I didn’t believe him, or I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to see the good in being reunited with a man that never wanted to know me in the first place. All I saw was a man asking for money an hour later and believing the lies that mother confessed to a year ago. Still I believed if he wanted to be in my life nothing would stop him. I limited my thought about him over the years. There were even months were he didn’t pass my thoughts at all.
It’s wasn’t till recently I lost the mistrust of a someone I thought was a friend. Funny how your world can be effect by one moment of clarity and seeing someone who you thought was ideal and could do no wrong. Someone I had a huge respect for when it came to being a descent person and learning a few things about the business. Someone who turned out to see none of those things in me. Someone I saw as a great father figure and had a genuine heart, turned around and made me feel like I was nothing. Like my father.
It’s only takes the one time to see someone for who they really are. No one is perfect, I knew that already, but I try to treat anyone as such. I only want to be treated the same way. When I see that time and care has been wasted, never again will I make that mistake. Never again will I let someone treat me like nothing, because I’m not. I’m a human being that has thoughts and feelings and should be treat as such. I am very much someone that will cut such a person off completely when treated badly. Why have someone in my life that looks down on me? I can do that on my own.
We all have messed up lives, we’re all busy, we all go through something at one point or another. My mother use to slap me and chock me, even made me take drugs when I started to model to keep me thin.. She was my agent first and never my mother before she got cancer and was no longer my agent. I can't have a baby and have tried and failed at adaptions. Still I was able to work past my evils somehow and not blame anyone for them or take them out on anyone. Why would I do that? What is the point in that? To make me feel better for when I know I was wrong in the first place or my life sucks. If I’m wrong I’ll say I’m wrong. Also, I don't think my life is any more devastating then the next persons. Like said, we all have our shit.
With that said I think it’s time to try and let one more thing go. To start looking for him, spite the reminder of how cold people can be, even myself.
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[06 Jan 2010|03:01pm] |
While Carlee Heart...sorry now Mrs. Leo Manicci is on her brake/honeymoon she's not really taking a holiday. While her new movie The Other Boleyn Girl is doing very well she is soon to grace our presence with her face on many magazine covers as well coming out with an international add for Dolce & Gabbana. She's also still very active representing the fight for breath cancer awareness with her serving mother. Carlee bring her mother‘s true story to life in a short film about her fight with cancer. Though she seems to be taking it easy she is covering it very well and seems to be coming out with more activities every time we look away. The most exiting rumor beside her resent marriage to rocker Leo Manicci is that she has been writer herself and there’s talk that one could be a movie. And to end all this resent activity is the best news of all that Playboyis knocking on her door.
( Dolce & Gabbana )
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| Having a holly jolly time. |
[07 Dec 2009|07:06pm] |
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I'm very excited for this month. I have never been as happy as I am now and for the first time ever I feel like I have a real family. My wonderful husband Leo i love saying that.and his Aunt and Uncle are coming out to Italy to spend Christmas with us. My mother as well will be joining us when she calms down about us getting married without telling her. I'm sure everyone will have questions when they get here, but right now I'm focused on decorating our home with lights and a tree. First time for everything and a little overkill I think, but Leo seems to loves it. I couldn't wait to give him his Christmas present either. Seeing how I got it last month and had it hidden away and I can't exactly bring it over right now. I have never seen a grown man so excited in my life and I think I out did myself. When I heard about it on the news I knew this was the gift I had to get him. So with the money I sold the boat with I got him a vintage 1962 black Ghia L6.4 Coupe that Frank Sinatra use to own. In a way I wish I waited to tell him, but something new has come over me and I love it. Everytime I'm here in Capri, Italy I just truly feel at home.
I will have to break my honeymoon for one day to premier my next movie. It's one the first I did before a long run of one right after the other and I remember when I got this role I was taking the place of someone that had dropped it. Giving me the name as the the pick up queen. It was a great role though and I'm really proud of this film and the work that went into it. It will be great to see everyone again for a night and catch up on everything that happen in the last year. The year is already gone as I look back on it and it was a rough road but I made it out on top better then ever.
So without further hesitation here is the trailer for my next movie that comes on December 17th.
( The Other Boleyn Girl Movie Premier. )
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| MARRIED!!! |
[30 Nov 2009|09:13pm] |
( ONTD )
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[30 Nov 2009|01:43am] |
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I even surprise myself. Never saw this coming.
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| I have been wrong about so much. I can admit that. |
[25 Nov 2009|08:51am] |
Doubt is a bitch. It’s poison and can seep into every pore of your body if you are not careful. I have taken a big risk and every step I take is like a new me. I’m surrounded by something new that even shocks me. Change is a blessing. The realization of what is most important to you is like a big wake up call. It’s saves you if you let it happen, once you get through that hard ride of trying to be something you never thought you get close to it so much more worth it when you have something to fight for. All those walls you put up and closing yourself off to world is safe, but is it living? Putting yourself in harm’s way can be scary and you hit the ground almost every time. You feel something though and that numb feeling you thought was better has become something so much more. You let something in and now you just need more of it. It’s okay to break the rules and not look back. That looking back only poisons the mind. So when that change happens it hits you like a ray of sun. You wake up and you're alive for maybe the first time in your life. You're still scared everyday because you don’t know what is going to happen at the end of the day, yet it’s still better than being wounded forever and not moving on.
You still making mistakes along the way, but this time it’s okay. Because you realize that you're human now and everyone has wounds. Working through it their own way. All that time wasted with being stubborn and proud really dose hold you back. It’s taken me this long however and I finally figured it out. It’s only gets in your way when you need to see the bigger picture. So in all when life cuts you and you bleed knowing it will heal. The scares will still be there and when you look at them you are learning from them.
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I went from a workaholic to being a huge beach bum. I never thought I could be this free from my work. It’s a huge change from last year but I have a lot more time on my hands and I’m loving it. I use to go crazy if I wasn’t doing something to fill my time. Not that I’m being an lazy vacation tramp but I did get my third script done and it something I’m very proud of. I haven’t shown it to anyone except for Leo. He taking a little more interest in what I’m doing when I’m not all over him. Also its October and I have been busy with my charity work and filling my time with helping out breast cancer awareness. It’s something me and my mom do every year since her fight with it two years ago and she is still going strong. We did something a little new then just showing our faces at walk-a-thons and fundraisers but gave out free breast exams to women who have never had one and couldn’t afford it. Plus getting to ride on a spa with wheels is a great and fun way to bring awareness to those who just want to relax. It didn’t feel like work at all and I love doing it. Plus seeing my mom a face of hope to other women that are going through the same thing makes me realize how lucky I am to have her every year. Yes we never got along growing up and some unspeakable things have happen. However forgiveness is there for a reason and I’m lucky to still have her to give it. She is my mom and she drives me nuts from time to time but I love her and I’m proud of her.
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| I never thought I see the day... |
[28 Sep 2009|01:20am] |
I feel like I just did this. I don’t have anything really big to report on. I feel like I wrote enough last time and didn’t get any response that if you really want to read something about what is going on with me just read my last post. So I’m not going to write too much. I did just end my world surf trip which was the best idea I think I ever had. It was what I needed at the time and huge dream of mine. I took away so much that I can’t even put it into words. I love to travel and even though I always feel like I need to be near the water I will always have the need to see the world in every way. Plus it good to be home again as well and getting back to work.
October is coming up and it’s about that time for me again. Where me and mother show our support for breast cancer. With her going strong as a survivor I’m happy to be doing this and sharing my story of hope with other this year. I still have a little bit of time before my next movie so I have a few interviews lined up. I will never get use to those no matter what. Till then I’ll be home and working on real life for once. Everything has been put on hold for a while.
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| On Vacation 2009 SURFER TRAMP |
[23 Aug 2009|11:34am] |
People have been asking where the hell have I been these days and since I had a break between movies and break into my personal life, it hit me that there was something that I always wanted to do. It only took me five minutes to decide to do something so impulsive. So I flew back home to LA packed a small bag that I can carry on my back, a small yellow tent and my surfboard Lucy. My mother knew I was crazy but I don't think she knew just how much when I told her I was going around the world to surf all the best beaches alone this summer. So far it's been a spiritual enlightenment. I have never felt so much peace and so light in my head. It's the best thing I could be doing for myself right now.
I stared out in Mundaka, Spain; moved on to Frigates, Fiji; then J-Bay, South Africa; La Punta, Chile and now I'm in Strandhill, Ireland. I might have started out doing this alone and though my body and mind was into to this my heart wasn't till Leo come to join me. There are so many things about us that don't make sense, yet at the same time being without him seem like utter insanity. Somehow we found our way back to each other and since then he has made this trip even more wonderful. Last year I started my road trip with him so it only feels right that he is on this journal with me as well. I even have him surfing a little and living out on the beach with me. I'm sure he's ready for a real hotel and shower. Waking up with sand everywhere can get a little irritating. I have been really bumming it up and as long as I prove myself to locals I can find a decent spot on the beach where I can wake up just in time for the morning waves. There is so much I want to say but really my trip is nowhere near finished. I still have so much to see, living a life of waking up to a sun rise and living in bliss and peace as the sun sets seem like the life. I want to quit acting and become a full time surf bum. Lucky I have a sane mind with me to remind that I don't like being cold all the time and that I would miss being as dramatic and want and get paid for it.
I'm going to try and put a little more effort into updating as I move along and where I'm at till I go back home. I know toward the end of this trip I'll be coming back with a new surfboard. THAT I'M MAKING MYSELF!!! There are so many great highlights of this trip but I'm ecstatic to make my own surfboard in New Zealand! This whole epic trip has blown my mind and my writing has picked up as well. One thing I'm amazed about it how my laptop can take on so much sand and still work great. I should have a good screen play in the works when I get back home, or at least I hope. Till then I leave you with this poem and a few pictures.
It's not the waves you catch,
How hard or how strong.
It's the wind in your hair,
The ocean's song.
Knowing you can't,
Almost certain you can.
Endless blue,
With a bare sight of land.
Getting to know the oceans,
Dolphins and fish your friends.
Too many mistakes,
That you need now not mend.
The loss of all worries,
The bad, the worst.
Nothing is practiced,
Nothing rehearsed.
The surfer's only knowledge,
Of what's going on,
Is the coming of the waves,
In the wake of the dawn
- Sasha Walker
( SURFS UP! )
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Can't trust everyone with the things you say. Who needs people when I have
Friggits
J-Bay
Mundaka
Raglan and
Teahupoo.
For the next few weeks my home is my surfboard.
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Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
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[21 Jun 2009|08:21pm] |
QUESTIONS ARE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LEAVE YOU WITH ONE MORE.
Well she’s all you’d ever want
She’s the kind I’d like to flaunt and take to dinner
Well she always knows her place
She’s got style, she’s got grace
( She’s a winner )
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I can be such a sentimental fool sometimes.
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... need Capri now. I can't stay one more minute in this house.
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It don't matter to the sun if you go or if you stay.I know the sun is gonna rise, shine down on another day. There will still be a tomorrow even if you choose to leave, cause it don't matter to the sun. It matters to me. It ain't gonna stop the world if you walk out that door. This old world will just keep on turning round like it did the day before, cause see to them it makes no difference it just keeps on keepin time, cause it ain't gonna stop the world, but it'll be the end of mine.
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